Do you find yourself looking to see what lights other people up? Have you become so accustomed to aligning with what everyone else likes or says is the right thing to do, that you aren’t sure what it is that you actually would like? Is your “light up” an ember, a flicker, or an inferno? When was the last time you allowed yourself the orgasmic joy of choosing something that made your whole body vibrate with excitement?
I know I am not alone when I say that growing up I knew a lot more about being frugal and pinching pennies than buying something because I wanted to. I was taught to save every penny and go without for as long as possible. My parents were survivors of the famous “Dust Bowl Days”. It was engrained that reuse, recycle, and go without were qualities to be aspired to. So, of course, that was the foundation that I was born and raised with. It took a long time into my adult life to “loosen the purse strings” and actually SPLURGE once in awhile- usually with buyers remorse attached…. Does any of that sound familiar to you?
Occasionally through my life I have allowed myself to follow that energy that lit me up. It might be jewelry, clothes, or food. A few times I really blew it out! I bought a horse that made my heart beat so fast that I knew he had to come home with me- his name is Omen. Another time we bought a house that still contributes to me as it lights me up every day of my life! It was not until I began my personal evolution in earnest that I really started paying attention to the energetics of what lit me up. I will never forget one evening, sitting by myself and expanding into a meditative space. Suddenly, I found my head and body being flooded with a vision and energy of future possibilities beyond anything I had ever imagined! It was beyond euphoria, beyond words to describe. That “light up” was an inferno!!! The energy hung with me for several days before fading- or perhaps it was just fully received by my sweet body. What that experience created for me was 1) the hunger to experience that again and again as a constant state of being 2) the journey of creating my life beyond the reference points of this reality 3) the willingness to follow every energy that matched the energy of that experience. I know if I allow myself to choose everything that lights me up, my life will continue to get greater and more joyful.
Here is a tool to play with. When you have a choice, ask yourself, “Truth body, if I choose this will it contribute to the life I would like to create?” or “Truth body, if I choose this will it make me money?” or “Truth body, if I choose this what will my life be in 5 years?” “What will it be like in five years if I don’t choose this?” Each time you ask a question with no answer in mind, be present with how your body feels. Light or heavy, expanding or contracting. If it is light and expansive, that is a YES from your body. If it is heavy or contracting, your body is telling you NO. It is kind of like “following your knowing in your heart or following that knowing in your gut”. When you follow what lights you up, you will always create your life greater- even if it makes no sense to choose it.
When you choose clothes, jewelry, perfume or cologne, a job, or a car (as examples) that light you up, you walk differently, feel different, are more confident, more joyful- people notice and want what you have! Whatever it is that you are selling, they are interested in buying it. That is how it makes you money. When you are different, your whole life can change to greater possibilities. Ask questions with no answer, be allowance of the energy to guide you and see what happens!
What lights you up?
Shaman, Healer, Access Consciousness Facilitator